Saturday, January 31, 2009

lost and found

And you, my son Solomon, acknowledge the God of your father, and serve Him with wholehearted devotion and with a willing mind, for the Lord searches every heart and understands every motive behind the thoughts. If you seek Him, He will be found by you; but if you forsake Him, He will reject you forever.
- 1 Chronicles 28:9

My God knows me through and through. That's so amazing and comforting to know. Even when I have my doubts and lack of self confidence, He is still carrying me, still understanding of who I am. But in order to witness the fruits of His love and protection, I must wholeheartedly devote myself to bringing Him glory and fame. I must be willing to let go of my mind, my pride, and give it all to Him to control. I couldn't imagine myself forsaking the Lord, not after all the good that has come into my life since knowing Him.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

walk and ponder

i realized that i have almost no free time to just sit and think about things. instead, i catch myself pondering life's questions while walking to my lab, from class to class, and any other time that i walk. yet even in those times, i don't get much out of it. my mind has too many things that it wants to think about and i can't decipher it all.

force field

but You are a shield around me, O Lord;
You bestow glory on me and lift up my head.
to the Lord i cry aloud, and He answers me from His holy hill.
Psalm 3:3-4

God protects. He nurtures us to become like His Son. He shields us away from all evil that we cannot handle and shows us all the beauty that is He. Reading this verse, I just imagine a big force field around me, one that no one can penetrate. Evil and sin try to come in, but they just bounce back and end up at a further position than they were to begin with because His shield is just that powerful. Even when times are down, God brings me through and through. I feel like He is never too far off, always by my side. Whenever I cry out to the Lord in prayer, I can feel His presence there, listening carefully to my pleas. I know He is there. I know He is protecting me from harm, for He is my shield.